With 42 standing just outside the door, waiting for you to make your exit, there are a few things I need to tell you before we part ways forever. Before I can say good-bye, I want you to know how much our trip around the sun together has meant to me.
We have seen a lot of good days, and some bad. We’ve shared laughter and tears. We’ve had our ups and downs, but that was all after you came roaring in last October while I was in the middle of my third semester of nursing school. We cried together when things were hard, but you also stayed by my side and saw me through to the end. We made it all the way through school together. You watched me graduate with honors and rise above my fears to be the student speaker at my graduation ceremony.
We experienced so many adventures together. We traveled to NYC, Louisville, Columbus, Memphis, North Carolina, Kentucky Lakes, the mitten (twice), Chicago and more. We saw my Cubbies win the World Series-something I always hoped for, but never really believed I would see. We ran the St. Judes Marathon in December; running through the St. Judes campus hearing, “Thank you, Hero!” from the parents and the kids we raised money for, was absolutely unforgettable.
Traveling to NYC with the beau was amazing, spending a week at Kentucky Lake with the kids was full of laughs, we enjoyed a week at the beach with the Jacobs side and last but certainly not least, hiking to the top of a mountain in the Smokies where we got engaged to the love of my life! It has been quite a year.
We started my very first nursing job, 41! And I could not be happier. I really love it! Working with a father/daughter OB/Gyn team is the perfect setting for me. I love the hope for the future that I get to witness on a daily basis. I have found my passion, my calling, my purpose. I was born for this, but you were the one who helped me figure that out. On any given day, my heart bursts with happiness and breaks wide open for the patients I am coming to know. All while wearing my dad’s stethoscope around my neck.
41, you were certainly not without frustrations, but we conquered things together and we made it. You have set things up for 42 to be something really special. Make no mistake about it, 41, you will always have a special place in my heart. You helped me come to a point of truly accepting that I am a work in progress. Not just saying those words, but owning them, believing them and embracing them. You helped me find my peace, 41, and for that I will be forever grateful. I know I’m going to miss you and it’s hard to let you go. Not because I am afraid of 42, or whatever lies beyond, but because of all you have done to make me who I am, the person who I am supposed to be. From the bottom of my heart, 41, thank you. Thank you for everything.
All my love,
PS. Don’t tell the others, but so far, you are hands down my favorite.